"When you get to eat buffet... You just happily eat them all, mixing every dish... take your own sweet time to decide which is the one dish you want to make it your main... After a while, perhaps, one by one, the dishes have all been taken, no more. Then you go regreting why you didn't make that decision earlier. Or... Perhaps all dishes still remains... You told someone you like this dish so much... yet the next moment, you chuck this dish aside and happily chose the other one... without even the slightest "feeling" for that dish you once said you loved..."
Sometimes, I wonder why are people contradicting themselves... Then happily put the blame on something else... Happily treat it like nothing happened. Perhaps sometimes 9/10 things said were merely excuses... Yet, we trust these people and accept those "reasons". Then few months later... you think back and you sigh... thinking of how stupid you were to accept those "reasons". I mean, they might be true. Yet, there're just so much things that contradict with those "reasons". But then again...
Well, nothing really happened to me, just thinking... Life's full of excuses... I mean, is giving the real reason really so difficult? At least I will die without regret... HAHA. yeah, I guess I'm already dead without any regret.
I'm a fucking emotional creature... I think I've drowned my heart.
Last week working... gonna miss those people I'm working with. Let me count my friends... Sec sch friends, 3 recently just distanced due to some "reasons". 2 studying. Lasalle friends? Hah... Just take it that I went to the wrong class... Working friends... saying goodbye soon.
I guess that makes me alone again, naturally...
Goodnight. =)
"Just wanna climb inside the skies to be with you..."
~Kaze
Enough to make me cry...
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