No mood to work. My mind never stops spinning. And it's killing me.
I don't greet customers nowadays. I don't approach them so much. And I just threw 3 water dispenser around today.
Sometimes, please say something and mean it. don't say something and seems to have forgotten you've said that earlier.
Nothing much.
I'm still not smiling.
Haha.
I'm still in a bad mood. Still in a mood where I can throw temper anytime.
Haha. Call me unreasonable. Call me hot-tempered. This is me.
When was the last time you do something that doesn't benefit yourself?
When was the last time you put other people before yourself?
When was the last time you think in other people's perspective?
When was the last time you listen to what others has to say?
I think I just need to quiet down for a while. Doing nothing for one whole week.
Working's not helping. Going out is not helping. Catching a movie isn't helping but sometimes make it worst. I'm sure jumping down a building doesn't help either.
So perhaps all I need is a good rest.
I'll go to the riverside, sit down and listen to my music on every of my off day now. I should quiet down alone.
Actually, I'm not having the slightest hope right now. Not being so hopeful for anything is better. I tried not to put the blame in anyone. I tried to think of it as some good old memories. But still... that feeling's still there, playing with my mind, making me feel so awkward. Sometimes I just stone for a moment while working, coz I happen to see something. Am I still crying? haha good question.
~Kaze
Tell me what's wrong with me.
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