Do dogs smile?

Hmmm, don't know if I can really concentrate working tomorrow. I mean, I've always been in my own world ever since, and I can't say I've fully recover, but still working on it bah.

Anyway, I'm going to start work tomorrow, so I guess that will kill my boredom bah. But somehow I don't really look forward to it. It's like nothing Really make me so interested. Really nothing. There's nothing for me to look forward to. I mean it's good I have something to do now, but. nevermind.

I don't know if I'm going the right direction. If it is, why am I not getting any better? And is what I think really the case? It seems like it is, but.

The last time I smile really so lively, was during the external group work. I really enjoyed, especially that day. It was a saturday. You know, a day when everything seems right? right where you want it to be.

Zhu tou? I missed calling that name. haha, it's random but just feel like saying la. nvm.

Blog is like the only place where I can really say things I wanna say. I know it makes no difference, people still read it, and it's like telling people indirectly. But i don't know, it's just different. And really, it has already become the so-called only "Person" i can talk to. It's like talking to a cat or something, which may not even understand you, but... Anyway, if I were to keep a pet, I think it will most likely hate me, coz I'll be telling lot's of things to it until it's bored to death.

Walking side by side, yet feel like so far apart...
Really don't know what went wrong.
Why did everything become like this?
All those talking, about still be friends?
Aren't really true when it comes to you.
In fact, no one can actually be that "normal".
I know, I understand
But let me have a chance to say
I think I still miss you...

I should be thinking how to get you back.
But I wonder why it is,
That some part of me tells me I'm a bother,
and the other telling me
"Go for it! pigs are smarter than you man."

I think being a pig may be better. I want to be a pig in the wild. Just running about doing nothing. Something I've been wondering, "Do dogs smile?" Interesting question? I think they do.

I hope tomorrow means a new fresh start. =)

~Kaze

Ni hai hao ma? =/