Today didn't do much, spent the night with andy, yet again...walking and walking was all we did. From orchard to chinatown. As usual, I'm doing all the talking most of the time... Yea, I know there's something bothering him but well, it won't do any good talking about it. On the other hand, talking about some other stuff will be better.
Yea, I do wonder why do we get all these shit? Well, perhaps I'm having those "sweet" memories that others might not be having... But having those makes it harder to forget you see. Well it's so "early" in the morning, and I wonder what's these two libra guys still doing staying up so "early" in the morning. Don't know... we both can't go to sleep.
You know, most of the time I do smile when I think of stuff that happened... But my heart is feeling the opposite instead. Those words never fail to melt my heart. But now it's like a layer of cold icy water is added on those words. Those memories are just like scenes of my life...and those scenes are still so clear to me even now... The exact words said, the exact place we were at, the exact things we did, the settings, the exact lighting, and perhaps, the exact time... Reviving me isn't impossible I guess... just that it takes time... a really long time probably.
I once believed that no one will like me, I was wrong.
I once believed I wouldn't have the courage, I was wrong.
I once failed and I thought this time it'll be fine, I was wrong.
I've been posting so much about love and stuff in this particular blog. I wouldn't say it was stupid, though some people might. But I wonder... when is this gonna stop? I realised one thing, that not everything has an ending. I'm one who do things based on "feelings". Everything I do, I do it with a purpose, "Simply because I feel like it". Sometimes I can walk to certain place just simply because I feel like it. Sometimes I don't eat simply because I don't feel like eating anything...Feelings plays such a big part to me. Perhaps one day, when I've lost all feelings, there'll be an ending. Ok all these are crap la, I also don't know what am I saying le... It's just so hard for me to convey some feelings through words coz I'm not good at it. I guess that makes me lose out...
I know all these are so random...and it's kinda boring... hearing the same stuff over and over again... But isn't that how I'm feeling? Again and again, it never fails to make me wanna cry out loud. It never fails to make me miss this someone so much. I guess that makes me worst than a girl bah...hmmm...
~Kaze
I know I shouldn't, but I'm Missing you away, so badly I feel like I could cry...
But I know it wouldn't help, it'll just spoil my eyes, so I won't.
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