Just had a shower. Been home for quite some time but was finally checking my mails away...deleting most of them...it's been so long since I've checked my mails...ever since the start of this year...Was deleting mails...looking at those dates...feb, jan...reminding me of the good old days...sigh...dunno what I was thinking...it's like i'm trying to delete some other stuff along with those mails...But I never will succeed in doing so...I know.
I'm tired of trying...tired of waiting for my phone to alert me with replies...staying up at night just waiting for that. But even till morning...it was still sleeping soundly... I'm tired of everything...I want my old life back...Those days in sec schools...vulgarities is the best man...haha...hanging out with friends, doing stupid things...arguing became our hobby...haha. Nothing to miss...nothing to worry about except exams, which I can't be bothered anyway. And back in the primary school times...I remembered I cried because I know my teacher was leaving or something like that...hah, that was stupid. But I'm a highly emotional creature man...hah.
I'm thru with being nice...I want to be nasty...heh. As nasty as I can get...Maybe one day you'll see me smoking outside Lasalle...haha I can't visualise that...hah. I'm not good with words so I shall stop talking so much...People look at me like I'm some sort of freak...haha perhaps thinking I'm a girl or wad...I don't care...I simply looked back at them...I used to just look away. Well really can't think of anything nasty...haha...just be myself bah...wherever my life takes me...though I hate my life.
Ok I'm in no mood for anything, but i'm gonna go play some games and relax...till I'm tired enough to fall asleep, sleeping so soundly that I won't think of anything.
~Kaze
I'm through with falling in love...
No comments:
Post a Comment