Thinking of some stuff..

5.45am ~~~ backed home...bathed, ready to go to bed... Thinking of some stuff...was so disappointed to find out that she won't be going today(yesterday)...though I didn't show. But I played my music and I emo on my own again...haha well disappointed was one thing, but I know I had to continue do those works... So I didn't stop. I wanted to take a break and just sit downstairs alone...but well I guess it will be wasting other people's time...instead of my own...so I didn't.

Well for one moment, I really had that urge to pick up my phone and tell you how much I missed you. But I guess you'll just find me stupid...so I didn't...Listening to the song "Bizarre Love Triangle", though I dunno what it's singing...but it felt like I understand...and i just feel so emo. I just love this song...

Well nth much to say anymore...just lot's of stuff going through my mind now that's keeping me awake... stuff like when will I see her? and what's it gonna be like the next time I see her. Will the attitude change again? How's she doing? Wonder will she still be able to come out once in a while... Well I guess I'm thinking too much. all my mind's abt her and it should stop...just dunno how. Everyday, it seems like an automatic thing to be thinking of her...

I wanna end this kind of life...I wanna do something abt it...just dunno what to do...

"Ni mei shuo bu ai wo, que xiang lian ren ban qian guo wo de shou...
Ru guo bu yao wo, wei he xiang lian ren she mo dou bu shuo...?"