How sad...

Sometimes I wonder... Is there something wrong with me, I mean the way I treat people. The way I do things, am I moving on the right path? I seem to be meeting lots of problems. I seriously think there's something wrong with me. Is there a device or something which can teach me how to do things the right way? Especially with handling people relationship, be it friends of wadever. I see people have good, or even best friends. I envy them. These people often tell me how good their best friends are...and it makes me jealous sometimes. Well perhaps it's not jealous. I just feel sad that I don't have one myself. Hah. Sometimes I just feel like laughing at myself... I mock at myself. Friends issue often made me cry so much. But what for? We're living for ourselves right? Though we're sharing the world. But sometimes it's just that you feel so damn lonely... Have so many people on your msn list, yet you do your math and you can't even find 5 you can talk to... i mean, those serious talking. Well, sometimes being such a wierdo really makes me lose out. I like things that most people don't like, I may even say things that others don't like. I do things that others don't like. I listen to music that others don't like. I wrote about things that others don't like. Cool! I'm a wierdo! Congrats! =) I shall give myself 5 stars for being a wierdo. Hah. I feel SO good mocking at myself!!! But I feel like I could cry right now... And then again, U see, I'm such a emofreak who most ppl don't like. Cheers! I hate myself for being like this, but I just can't control my emotions sometimes... To those people out there who have at least 5 good friends you can talk to anytime...Good for you, cherish them. Coz when you've lost them, you'll be like me, sitting infront of my computer alone for the whole day, looking at your list of contacts, for someone to talk to, but found no one. absolutely no one. =)

~Kaze

my life is a sad case, just skip my blog, and proceed to the next pls. =)