My blog aren't showing everything, it's just a place for me to type out some feelings I'm having...well just that there aren't really any sort of happy things to talk about...so all you guys see is depression...but yea, I'm depressed at times, I get emo at times...but I still carry on my life...joking with friends is still part of me...just that it seems like I'm starting to scold vulgarities again...haha...perhaps becoz of my mood nowadays...It's a way of vending anger...hah.
Well I do understand that I'm living for myself...that's why I still carry on my life...I can't stop thinking when I'm doing my work, so I included that feelings into my work...to make me work faster...yeah, that's a way that Joo agreed and encouraged me to do...doing something u like to finish ur work faster...in a way. I didn't stop working becoz of what happened...And becoz of that, I'm able to complete my work on time...though I thought it was not very good, but hey, I completed it, give me a break...and who knows? They may be good, my works are selected for sampling...haha, perhaps it might be bad though, but well who cares...I can't come out with top notch work in the next two days anyway...
Anyway, this post seems to be meant for you to read...coz sometimes I find that just pure reading and understand, not having a chance to reply immediately may be a good way to communicate coz sometimes ppl just say things that they don't really meant to...though sometimes this way can cause a big misunderstanding like this one...
I'm fine, I'm still living on, I still go out with friends, I'm still having fun, I'm still smiling at times...Just that this happiness has kinda decreased...and is kinda diff... So I think about it alot...well good memories are worth recalling right? They make me smile at times... Well I guess I'll just wait for this chance to come by again, and well life is about making choices right? just like what's spiderman 3 abt...haha...making choices...what a show... to remind me of so much things... 2 guys loving the same girl... fighting over the same girl... talked over the same girl... helping the same girl....(not that similar for this one)... People make choices, people died...people sacrificed...but well, the people left living will still live on...but they still keep them in memories...Your mind is like a bank, you deposit stuff in it...the most valuable ones will be stored in a safe box...with pin number or password that only u know and u can open it once in a while to take it out and in this case, think abt it. Yeah, this is one of the things that I can't forget...but I will be putting it back, and carry on with my life...coz I know I have more things to deposit in it...
Well having said so much...I guess you won't be worrying everyday for this zhu tou of urs anymore, would you? Don't worry, I'm fine...but how about you? I wanna hear from you... I still hope to see you again, as usual...
Take care,
~Kaze
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
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