Cheer up pls... =/

I don't know why, nothing happened... But I'm getting so frustrated...I'm getting pissed so easily now...Perhaps I'm just tired...but I know there's something more that's making me feel so uneasy... Sometimes I envy people that have other ppl to cheer them up when they're feeling down...I look at them and I feel so..."sour"? that I'm missing this something they have... Perhaps sometime all we need is to have a person to do something or say something that brighten up ur "night" after a day's hardwork...I don't know about you people, but I'll feel so good if I have such a person in my life...I'll smile...even though I'm tired...and it's not a forced smile... It's just an automatic reaction/feeling that I will have...

The friendster horoscope is so true that I'm constantly seeking for equality...well sometimes I feel that's what's making me so vexed? I know life isn't fair...I know that...but surely, I'm not wrong either to be seeking for that fairness. I can no longer find that balance in my life...perhaps I should just look at things I have now and not things I don't have...but things that I have, surely isn't making me happy. I'm here typing...while listening to some emo songs...well all my songs are emo songs...haha...but these songs I'm listening now are nice...indonesian songs... most people just give me lots of "Dots" when I tell them about it. But what's wrong with listening to indonesian songs? They're much nicer than some songs you guys are listening... They are songs that can make me so emo even without me knowing what the hell it's singing?

I feel so sick...not only mentally, but physically too, I seem to be having sore throat, yet I'm stuffing my mouth with potato chips...For? I dunno, I just feel like eating...rather than some actual meals... Everything I eat seems tasteless and I finish it without really enjoying them...perhaps the only time I've enjoyed my food was when I'm with her. I don't care if she really like me, the point is I enjoyed... I smile becoz of her, I cry becoz of her, I work hard becoz of her, I run becoz of her, I enjoyed my life while with her. The point is becoz of her, I've lived my life enjoying it. My life had nv had so much happening before. It doesn't matter how it is now... what's important is I've so much to remember...and I'm really glad for all these memories I'm having. It may end badly...but I sure have nth to lose...Just gain...So why am I so sad? Cheer up pls...=/

Thanks.
~Kaze