Zhu tou, Smile crazily...!

Just came home from a long day of outing. Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with me. Seriously, I think something about me is seriously wrong. I dunno why I made the matter worst, I really didn't have any intentions to argue...Perhaps it's the way I'm using my english. I shouldn't even try to explain anything without knowing how to put it across in the first place. I know it's impossible to explain anything clearly using all these high tech stuff...And you used to say you're stress being with him, and perhaps me too. I think you really are now. Getting upset over so much things isn't good, especially now when you're already sick. I really feel so bad now...Please take good care of yourself, don't make me worry k? I can bring you to a doctor if you ever need. I think you should just don't care about me now...And live a happy life instead. That's what I've always wanted, right from the start when I just started to know you.

That cheerful, crazy zhu tou has been long gone. I want to see it come back. And I thought I could continue to make you smile, but I didn't. And for all I wanted to say, is stay as happy as you can, just like you did, when you're taking photos with your friends recently. Just stop caring about me, I will understand. Perhaps next time I see you after the holidays, there's already someone out there who could really put on a permanent big smile on your face..."a face of the zhu tou I used to know"... When that time comes, I'll then sleep well, knowing you're well, And I'll wish you the best. :D Give you a really big hug, still as "Zhu tou"...HAha, mad.

Smile happily, gracefully, beautifully, elegantly, brightly, cheerfully, and not forgetting crazily...I like that one best...haha...

Just smile :D
Thanks.
~Kaze(forever your zhu tou, won't break this promise)