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Finally finished what I initially plan to finish...although her assessment is tmrw rather than today and got lots more work to do...But I promised to help my sis and couldn't help her anymore.

I guess today may be the last day seeing her...Full of disappointment...just didn't want it to end like this...but it did. I'm left alone again...feeling so exhausted...so tired that I can't even cry, which is perhaps a good thing...I'm not tired enough...have to get myself tired just a little bit more...perhaps this is the only way I can prevent myself from thinking abt it. Maybe I should go find a job and work work work...just make myself so tired that I can't think anymore...tired till I'm numb...

I dunno if I should say this. I know nth have been said...and she said nothing's changed. But you know sometimes things are different after some incident occured...even the "bye bye" she said are different. I still remember the bye bye she used to said while on the train...It's different...I don't know how to put it in words...but it's just different. Perhaps that was the only time she looked back after saying good bye...that saturday...was really happy that day after I saw that thing she made...I missed bidding her goodbye while holding her hand... But it's ok...I know this holiday is a great time for her to meet new people...and perhaps...she will meet someone much much better...(it's not like it's very difficult anyway) so I shall wish her the best.

I'm sorry but perhaps I can't be your zhu tou forever, even though I wanted very much to be. You'll always remain in my heart though...Good bye, zhu tou.

"When you walk away, I count the steps that you take."
"Do you see how much I needed you right now?"

seriously I need someone to constantly remind me not to emo...or just be with me...just chill out...At least i know when I'm not happy, there's someone there cheering me up.

Thanks.
~Kaze