My black book

Boring, boring, boring...my life is so boring now...I'm sick of work...I'm so sick...perhaps I'm falling sick soon...throat seems to have some problem since few days ago...Everything seems tasteless to me...and I have no appetite for any food...I eat for the sake of eating...I don't know why, perhaps too stressed...seriously it's not easy trying so hard to complete my work while my mind is way off at somewhere else...And I exploded one time...perhaps a second one's coming. I will try to control it though...everyone's like saying I'm doing my work so fast...especially my black book...but what they do not know is the content of that book...There're lot's of hand written stuff inside...and there's this intro which I took out when I showed everyone. Coz when I'm starting that book, some things happened and I was really depressed. I can tell no one but to write it out...then if I like it, perhaps I'll post on my blog... It's like I'm being accompanied through my visual journey...but it isn't true in reality...Of coz I would've hoped for a more happy black book than a depress one like this...but things just happened...perhaps that's why people seems to see alot in my black book...but actually they're all irrelevant stuff...but I thought it's to tell a story, so i put it in...and that's the only thing that got me moving...alone. Everyday, every night, when I got something in mind, I just write. I'm sure perhaps they sux...but they're my feelings and they don't sucks to me. To be honest, I enjoy writing those stuff coz it kinda relieve my stress a little. Especially in the middle of the night when everyone's asleep and I'm still writing. BUT, I won't want to write those stuff again...if it's all just sad stuff......

Can there be something I can be happy about and write about it? I seriously need some happy injection...:P

Thanks.
~Kaze

Inject me with happiness please...:P