Mix feelings...

Nothing much to say. Yesterday was a day with lots of mix feelings. lots of Disappointment, some confusion, abit of frustration, a little happiness, and then finally felt so "rejected" "sadded". haha. Maybe i should cut this head of mine off, no more pig head, no more thinking of it. haha.

It's 8am now I don't know if I should go to school. I haven't finish my work to show. Coz I went to sleep yesterday instead of doing it... I really want to see you...it seems to be the last day to see you. I really want to see you, even if we're not talking for the whole day. I heard you saying about how you want to disappear during the holidays...since quite some time before, even before I told you. I'm really afraid that it's true. Sometimes I want to talk to you but dunno how to start a conversation, coz you used to be the one coming to me and I took for granted. But I saw you talking so happily with the rest...so nvm. didn't wanna interrupt. Perhaps feelings didn't changed, but some things did changed. If I get an opportunity, I'll try though. You said "bye" to me yesterday, to "zhu tou" to be exact. It seems to be a long time since I heard that. Perhaps more than 1 month. We joke around abit and I was really happy. But are things really the same? Some acts, some people you'll approach, are different. Don't know if I should go to school ltr, it's be a waste of time. I'm left with 3 days till my assessment. It's true that I love limegreen, I love my songs...I love my com. But it's not enough. What I really need is you. You are the only one that can make me feel happy. Those stuff are just things to get me going without you around...

Anyway, was quite happy that when I was feeling so frustration, isolated yesterday, there was someone to keep me company through sms. Didn't thought that person will be smsing me. In fact I'm quite afraid to get close to this person again...But yea, just wanna thank this person I guess.

Thanks.
~Kaze